When I was in the betrayal and insecurity walk in my life, I always asked myself why my life was not getting any better compare to those who don’t walk with God. Have you ever asked that question also to yourself?
Well, it is normal, but it is not helpful. Comparing ourselves to others is a blind spot in looking into God’s love and purpose in your life. God made you uniquely different from others. Your weakness may be a strength for others. Your strength may be a weakness to others. God knows your inmost being than anyone else you’ve known. The enemy wants us to compare ourselves to others to distract us in the direction that God wants us to take. Satan is a great deceiver. Thus, he wishes for our downfall to disbelieve the nature of God.
When we dwell on comparison, we always feel the insecurities and only see our weaknesses that lead us to guilt. After giving birth to my son, I was not looking good physically and did not feel pretty, no matter what I did. And that’s because the enemy found a place in my heart of anger out of the pain of betrayal. I would compare myself to the other woman; the way she dressed up, the way she made friends with others. Comparison dragged me to the pit of insecurity and self-pity. I was not happy and no peace. I was angry, but eventually not to God.
The journey was arduous, yet my heart did not stop to find God’s presence. I did not stop seeking the Lord, no matter how hard it was for me. And God pursued me in my walk of anger, insecurity, and bitterness. He opened many doors for me to see His love and forgiveness. But it was not the way I wanted, indeed, His ways and thoughts are not my ways;
“For My thoughts are not your thoughts,Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord.“For as the heavens are higher than the earth,So are My ways higher than your ways,And My thoughts than your thoughts.”
Isaiah 55:8-9, NKJV
The Lord healed me from many things that were not pleasant to His glory. Hear me! Jesus Christ can change our heart and renewed our mind. He can transform and heal us. Indeed, we can have the new heart and new Spirit (Ezekiel 36:26-27), if we are willing.
Now, I have learned not to give more attention to what others would say about me. In the same manner, I do not entertain any comparison that ticks on my mind. I pursue to focus on the finisher and author of my faith. I run my race with Jesus Christ. But I pray I would not overrun others but to walk with them, learn from them, and hear their hearts. Stop comparing yourself to others! You are wonderfully and fearfully made by God in your own unique personality.
“I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.” Psalm 139:14, NKJV
The amazing view of Emerald Lake
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