Today is the second Sunday that God has spoken again some words to me through the Scripture. Last Sunday, Pastor Kevin has read Lamentations 3:21-25 (KJV), “This I recall to my mind, therefore have I hope. It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed, Because his compassion fail not. They are new every morning: Great is the faithfulness. The Lord is my portion, saith my soul; Therefore will I hope in him.”
These words were exactly the Scripture I was reading on my Saturday quiet time with the Lord. Then, the next day at Sunday morning service, our beloved pastor read the exact verses. When I needed to remind myself that He is there, even if I can’t seem to feel like He is there, God will always make a way to keep telling me His existence. And when my emotion covers the light and hope I have, which is okay as a human being, but the truth of God will always prevail. Whatever is written on His Word, that’s the absolute truth that remains yesterday, today, and forever. My feelings will change, but the truth of God’s existence and His faithfulness won’t. I never doubted God’s existence. Sometimes when I am in the pit of an overwhelming situation, my body got exhausted, and I would get emotional that would have led me to stress. And when I get tired, I wanted to get out of that situation as soon as I could without processing the journey. Eventually, it is in the journey we grasp the learning to growth not on the goal of our destination.
Not a coincidence, but a plan..
And today is the second Sunday God has spoken to me through His words. Our pastor has read Matthew 11:28 (KJV), “Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” And this morning before going to church while preparing our breakfast, I have listened to a preaching by Pastor Craig Groeschel, and he preached about “A Different Kind of Rest”, and read Matthew 11:28. Isn’t it amazing how the Holy Spirit moves? Yes! there is no coincidence with God, but it is God’s plan to hear me this exact verse. God is like telling me, are you getting it now?
For the past few months, I’ve been battling an emotional imbalanced and a lot of stress to cope up both personal and work. I am happy with my current work, but the workload was a little too much for the past weeks. It led me to exhaustion physically and mentally while facing a very challenging situation at home. My brain just shut down and my emotions were on a roller coaster. Night after night, I had a terrible moment with my son, and I kept crying. I could not sleep well no matter how I tried my best to seek God in prayers. Sometimes, God would allow us to experience in a flat tire of our faith so He can fill us up full with His air. It is so important not to stop on just being flat on your tire of faith until God fills you up with His air fully.
By His grace, I keep going and asking Him to speak to me daily. I always remind myself, “He is just there. Don’t stop talking to Him. It is okay to cry. Just keep it going.” I PUSH (Pray Until Something Happens) myself every day. Thus, I have been asking God to speak to me, “Here I am, Lord. I am listening now. Speak to me.” Until He led me to Lamentations 3:21-25 and confirmed it on Sunday through Pastor Kevin’s reading it. Then, today (second Sunday) He speaks to me again in Matthew 11:28, which is very significant for me to - REST.
The Holy Spirit doesn’t work in coincidence, but works with the Father’s plan and purpose in our lives. We just need to be very sensitive about what He has been telling us. And the amazing part is God meets you where you are at the perfect time. He gives us what we need, not what we want.
Many years ago, when I was so angry because of the pain of betrayal, I got consumed with my anger. But I did not stop there. This is what I’d love about my relationship with Jesus because I can be honest with Him. I can be angry, sad, lonely, upset, and happy, yet He is still there to listen first. With Jesus’ loving ears, He graciously and patiently listens with my enraged emotions without being irritated with me. And with His gentle small voice, He would speak to me with a forgiving and most loving heart. During those years of being angry, the Lord spoke to me through His words in Ezekiel 36:26-27(KJV), “A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh. And I will put my spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes, and ye shall keep my judgments, and do them.”
It is so incredible how the Holy Spirit works. But keep PUSHing yourself. Pray until something happens. Never stop seeking God. Never slack in your prayer. He is just there with you listening. When God is so quiet, it's because He is listening with our pain, sometimes non-sense whining. When you’re done whining then, He will show you great and mighty things (Jeremiah 33:3). The Lord sees our heart more than we do. He knows if you are willing to obey, or not, perhaps you’re not ready yet. The ways of our Father are perfect, trust Him.
Que Sera Sera…
Do you remember of the song, “Que Sera Sera (Whatever Will be, Will be)? I memorized this song when I was in elementary, I think it was on Grade 3, our amazing teacher taught us this song and asked us to memorize Psalm 23. Those were the days where teachers could still teach, pray and taught the students about Scripture. Have you ever think what will be your future and tomorrow’s look like?
When I was a child, I could have told you many times what I would be like when I have grown up without even too much thoughts about it. Then, adulthood came, and it is haunting us with what our future will be. We try our very best to save money as much as we can. We are worried about tomorrow. But the Scripture is very clear not to worry about it, as it says in Matthew 6:34 (NKJV), “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” No wonder why God told us to have a childlike faith. As a human being, it is common to worry about our future, but it is not beneficial to us to dwell on the boat of worries. Sometimes, our worries bring us to a place of stress and depression. Worries are the unnecessary thoughts that we are trying to control by our own abilities and strength.
Well, God has taught me this principle many times and I am learning day by day to live one day at a time. When worry begins to mumble in my head, I remind myself I have a God who is not merely a provider but a sovereign God. It is, indeed, easy to say until you’ll have to live by it. But the good news is, it is possible. Dwelling ourselves in the presence of God helps us not forget His promises, and we experience His mighty power protecting us.
Finding Rest in God’s Presence…
Rest is so important to our spiritual health as well. Physical exhaustion can lead to a breakdown in our emotions and mental aspect. And if these two will not function in balance, we have no strength to come to God’s secret place to listen and hear His voice. God created rest for our benefit, to restore us. He even rested after He created the heaven and earth. Thus, we can experience true rest when we spend time in God’s presence, praying and reflecting on His words. But we cannot do this well if our body is tired.
One day, I broke down at work emotionally. I just kept crying. Thankfully, my district manager was kind enough to understand where I was. He sent me home and let me had my four days off to recharge again. I felt physically and emotionally exhausted because of a very challenging situation at home, too. And my body was so tired because of a big account we had. The transition was challenging enough for only two people to work it out. But God will always make a way. He would use people around you to understand and have a compassion for what you have been through. I felt tempted to find another job, and I received another offer. Then, it came to my mind, “Why do I have to change a job every time I got tired? I am not like this. For sure this is not me, I usually stay with an employer for a long period of time. Why do I have to escape every time I felt this way?.” Then, I kept praying about this dilemma, asking God’s wisdom to make the best decision. Surely enough, God made a way again. And this time, God has given me His favor. Amazingly, He sent people to help us at the workload and my district manager offered me a highly favourable position and compensation.
Perhaps the process is arduous and even uncomfortable, but never lose your heart. He has made all things beautiful in its time (Ecclesiastes 3:11). It may not be the whole thing you have been asking for, but it is truly what you have needed now. He will surely show you more great and mighty things while you are growing on your walk with Him.
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